Dear Family, I'm Sorry.

I went to the doctor today for my 6 week check up. Got my pap smear, got my breast exam. Got on the scale, 164 lbs.

What?! I've gained weight since the birth? Ack! You're kidding me!

I guess I'm too used to eating for two. I'm really going to have to go back to my old ways. Counting all my calories, keeping a food log and dealing with a rumbling belly. I have 50 pounds to lose. That's my goal. I'm going to be skipping meals and doing a liquid diet. The last time I did this diet it worked very well. Unfortunately, I owe cigarettes most of the credit.

I think I'm going to do the coffee, tea, soup, wine and veggie diet. I need to shrink my stomach and make myself think I'm full, even if I'm not. I remember the last time I did this diet; I was pretty darn grumpy. My ex and I fought quite a bit.

I hope my family will see me through this hard time and forgive me for my moodiness, should it happen.

Dear Family,

I'm sorry. I'm over weight and I can't stand it anymore. I'm going to do a radical diet these next few weeks. This will make me very cranky and I might not be very nice. I apologize in advance for my bad moods.

Sincerely,
Your mom and wife

Things I Look Forward To

I have so many things I want to do once this baby is born. Last night, in my sleep, I woke up in pain every time I needed to roll over to the other side. I want my body back. I want my normal life back.
This is a list of things I'm looking forward to after Evan's birth:

• Losing weight. I like to be around 115 pounds. I think I look good when my ribs are well defined and my cheek bones are pronounced.

• Being able to eat or drink what ever I want. If I want coffee, I get coffee. If I want wine, I get wine.

• Going for walks with Evan and Trevor. Maybe getting a dog and taking him with us.
  

• Getting my teeth fixed. I'm getting myself used to the idea I'm going to look funny for a little while, but once they're fixed, I'll be so happy.

• Getting a job and making some friends.

• Last but not least, Sex. Gonna have lots of sex :)
  

Ginger Snaps

I'm officially addicted to the ginger snaps.
I wish I never bought them now.
I weigh 174.4 lbs.
That makes me 15 pounds over weight, not good.
My mouth still hurts.
My face is swollen.
I'm taking the antibiotics.
They taste like farts smell. Eww. Nasty.